To K

13.11.2021

«Once I had a dream
I was falling from the sky»


There are many things inside me
like words of a more intimate language
like moves in the inner dances of our soul

voices calling you from a closer distance
like lava trying to disturb the ocean
like water flowing patiently through rock

dreams of a deeper understanding
like music in the air of our memories
like whispers getting louder than the storm

your smile wrapped in the happiness of sadness
like a lighthouse warning our hidden longings
like a promise to a sufferer of love.


El Matallana

Sauna

18.09.21


Un baile

y un beso

parten en dos al tiempo


Estás justo al borde

de otra historia sin relevancia

o de una narrativa que por fin derrumbe

las paredes de tu tristeza…


Si sudas en el sauna del presente

todo el miedo

y la incertidumbre

tal vez comiences un nuevo mito

que sane el dolor que sufres.


El Matallana

Sauna

18.09.21


One dance

and one kiss

split time in two


You are at the edge

of another irrelevant story

or of a narrative that could finally tear down

the walls of your sadness…


If you sweat in the sauna of the present

all the fear

and the uncertainty

you might start a new myth

that heals the pain you suffer.


El Matallana

Vamos bailando querida

14.04.2019

A Miriam Catherina

Las gotas del cinismo

corroen mi cabeza

Pocas mentiras quedan por creer

Pocas verdades son del todo ciertas

 

El mundo es un juego sombrío

donde el que gana pierde

y el que pierde no existe

 

Sobre demasiados campos reina el veneno

Sobre muchos cuerpos pocos reinan…

 

Yo fui niño y vi el cielo como un horizonte

Lavé la cara del mundo con poemas

Arranqué flores para mi madre

Y tuve amistades para siempre

 

Eventualmente aprendí a temer sin saber

y olvidé cómo llorar

Me hice grande sin crecer,

amante sin amar,

sentí el odio del momento,

mío

sin serlo,

heredado de tantas tragedias

antes de mi propio nombre

 

Pero mi vida, que no es un drama,

es una red de contradicciones,

es un cuento sin fin ni trama,

una vorágine de oximorones,

y hoy sin embriagarme te miro

borracho de tus sabores,

contagiado de tu sonrisa,

feliz por tus ilusiones

 

Vamos cantando querida,

bailando entre los leones.

 

El Matallana

 

 

Amor

31.01.2016
Al Lucero de Punta Hermosa
Como un baile que empieza adentro 
y encuentra su movimiento afuera,
como un violín en su nota más tenue y nítida, 
hay una alegría que es dolor al mismo tiempo, 
una herida sanadora e íntima
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La procedanza de Odo Marquard

04.03.2015

 

Toda la vida bailando al ritmo

de la música que fue

con un mismo pensamiento

y una sola misma piel

 

Danzan locos los modernos

ignorando el paso aquel,

el compás que sueñan nuevo,

y las canciones de su ayer

 

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Why Colombians are so happy?

Lately I am been hearing again that Colombian people are happy. I hear people repeating that Colombia is the second happiest country in the world after Costa “Rrrica”… I never take time to see how those rankings are made or if they really make sense but whenever people talk about them I remember my life in Colombia, Germany and Peru, and ask myself where people looked happier to me.

According to my personal experience, most of Colombian people are happy even if they are not happy. I have observed and luckily also experienced that happiness in Colombia is not a project but a disposition, an attitude rather than a desired circumstance. It is like dancing Salsa in Cali.

Most of the people from Cali dance even if they do not know how to do it and eventually they become pretty decent dancers or even professional dancers. They take music and dancing as a way to express themselves, relate with others and enjoy life. They do not care that much about doing the proper step at the proper time because they are busy transforming the rhythm and the emotions and thoughts that come with the music into movement. That is why everyone dances differently there, even when they do the same basic things: To transform music into movement they let the songs bring out their personality. They move in the way they feel the music in that particular moment, beyond the repetition of a correct set of steps and turns… I have seen many people from other countries worried about how to dance in the correct way but not worried about how to be themselves and break free through dance like the caleños «naturally» do it. When you grow up in Cali you can see if people are feeling what they dance or just repeating a nice choreography to look well and say to themselves: «I am dancing well». But even if they do dance well you tend to reject the sight of it and look in the dancing floor for other couple that is dancing in a maybe not so impressive way but full of joy and flavor («¡sabor!»)…

So these statements about how happy Colombians are have helped me to reflect about happiness and make me believe that I am happy because I decide to be so rather than because I do or have some special set of things. I dance simply when I dance (on my own way) and not only when I dance well. I told to a German friend once, as we were in an improvised party on one of the main streets of Cali: «Hier hat Tanzen nichts mit Leistung zu tun, kein Stress!» («Dancing here does not have anything to do with performance, relax!»). The same may apply to happiness, what do you think?

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