Una orquídea para recordar

05.06.22

Puse mi amor en tus manos equivocadas,
no había nada que pudiera hacer,
estaba ciego y estaba sordo,
triste e inocente,
solitario y tonto

La salvación que yo vi en ti
no era nada más que una vieja herida
Todas esas mentiras que necesitaba escuchar
me hicieron creer que realmente éramos dos

Pero ahora veo en lo más oscuro de mí
una terca luz brillante
que no viene de ti,
mi bella alma
aún en la batalla
me habla amablemente
y me dice la verdad:

«Sigue siendo honesto
y compartiendo tu corazón
sigue soñando y escribiendo
tus poemas y canciones
tal vez un día, largo tiempo bajo la hierba,
ella te traerá una orquídea
y recordará su amor».

El Matallana

An orchid to remember

05.06.22

I put my love in your wrong hands,
there was nothing I could do,
I was blind
and I was deaf,
sad and naïve,
lonely and fool

The salvation I saw in you
was nothing but an old wound
All those lies I needed to hear
make me believe we really were two

But now I see in the darkest of me
a stubborn bright light
not coming from you
my beautiful soul
still in the fight
talks to me kindly
and tells me the truth:

«Keep being honest
and sharing your heart
keep dreaming and writing
your poems and songs
maybe one day, long under the grass,
she’ll bring you one orchid
and remember her love».

El Matallana


Poison and elixir

30.03.2015

 

How sweet the ambivalence

How bitter the ambivalence

poison and elixir

in the glass

in the body

death and pleasures

 

Your voice saying hello

says goodbye

Your rejecting hand

offers the belly

 

Your words that inspire love

but hurt

your secrets that reveal

but hide

 

You inspire me

you convoke me

you attack me

you scare me

 

You take me

you release me

you ignore me

you want me

 

How sweet the ambivalence

How bitter the ambivalence

How beautiful and awful love

that lives because it dies

 

El Matallana