Ominous path

14.02.2022

It is an ominous path
the one of self-destruction,
an angry voice inside,
sad old whispers

We are supposed to carve our face
out of the stone of existence,
but we learn to chew silently
the marrow of our own bones
in desperation

Our love is there just for others
as is our friendship
and our compassion
while our hollow heart,
full of longing,
beats with remorse,
ashamed and doubtful

How can we hold our own hands?
How can we offer ourselves shelter?
How can we be our own home?
How can we live in our presence?

It is an ominous path
the one of self-destruction,
an angry voice inside,
sad old whispers

El Matallana

To K

13.11.2021

«Once I had a dream
I was falling from the sky»


There are many things inside me
like words of a more intimate language
like moves in the inner dances of our soul

voices calling you from a closer distance
like lava trying to disturb the ocean
like water flowing patiently through rock

dreams of a deeper understanding
like music in the air of our memories
like whispers getting louder than the storm

your smile wrapped in the happiness of sadness
like a lighthouse warning our hidden longings
like a promise to a sufferer of love.


El Matallana